Letting Go and Diving In

My blogging attempts have always been scattered at best, but really to skip more than an entire year? Scattered doesn't even begin to cover that.

On a whim, I opened up my blog this morning and started reading, hanging on every word, all the while the memories flooding back to me like a tidal wave, overtaking my thoughts. I wondered why did I stop in the first place. A lot of it can be chalked up to my feelings of inadequacy. If I can't do it faithfully, regularly, perfectly, then why do it at all? Why even try? Perfectionism. That ugly monster that paralyzes us into indecision and inaction.

And then of course, finding the time to sit down and blog has always been another issue. I have so much to do, so much that I want to do that it is hard to do things that aren't essential, like blogging. But, after visiting here again today, I think perhaps I should move it a little closer to the top of my list of priorities.

I have journaled some this year and that is the main thing, getting it all down on paper, but I do like that I can share a small part of my life with my long distance family through blogging. The sweet compliments and encouragement from my niece who enjoys reading it doesn't hurt any either. Thank you, Natalie!

So, today I pick back up the blogging pen. Letting go of perfectionism, once again, and just doing the best I can. Months may go by without a single post, but I can't let that stop me TODAY. Today, that's all I have any way. No sense in worrying about tomorrow, something that may never even exist. Today. Today. God's gift. The present. I'll live my life with a "one day at a time" attitude, blogging included.